Day + 42

It is starting to look like the slow recovery process is working. At least enough so that they are talking about releasing me as early as tomorrow. We are still dealing with most of the issues and nothing is really going to change but my location. I will still be taking in food via TPN and all the same meds, they will just be from home. This comes with mixed feelings- on one hand it would be great to sleep/be in my home again (its been 20 days). In fact, of the last 50 days I have spent 45 in the hospital. On the other hand doing everything that is done in the hospital from home is a lot of work. A lot. In addition to doing the stuff at home, I will still need to make a daily visit to the clinic. Which in itself is a chore. We have an hour drive up to the clinic then get blood draws and wait about an hour to see if additional meds are needed, if so then administer meds (maybe 2 more hours), then another hour ride back home. Total average time 5 hours, and we get to do this every day Mon-Sun. Although I have gained a lot of energy, the clinic visit and home health tasks are going to take a lot out of me and my care-givers. We are willing to give this a try again but it is questionable as to how really-helpful this might be.

I just wanted to add a note here regarding care givers. You all know that I have Karen watching my back and helping in so many ways that I can not mention, but additionally, I have had my mom out for 3 weeks and now my sister in-law, Tracey for 7 weeks - both from Chicago. Their day to day help is so very hard to describe. Their help runs the gamut from helping with meds and getting dressed to just being in the room when I come to from a drug induced nap. I am so very grateful that they have been able to be at my side as we go through this process. THANKS guys...(thanks everyone...)